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Memory Machine

by Bellwethur

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1.
If all those words I said to you back then Were just as cruel as I recall How can I ever apologize? How can I ever grow at all? Now that I power on the Memory Machine, I can see it all so clear Compilations of all that I’ve seen Things that mold me through the years
2.
Guidelines 02:47
Mama told me not to waste my head She forgot to ask me what I would do instead (about my head) Said “I know you can’t be that bad, You’re my son. How far could this go?” I found truth in your words left behind Laid waste to your guidelines If you want to tell yourself that you’d be happy You wasted your last goodbye, But you had to tell yourself that we’d be alright Sun is shining in the sky up above Without a worry in the world we make love Sun was shining yesterday, but the rain has come back It is gloomy in our lives, fuck this
3.
All your love’s gone away And I can’t hear your voice this time All your love’s gone away And I can’t hear your voice this time Guess you’re really gone, with so much left to say Guess it will be long, from beyond the grave From beyond the grave, From beyond the grave, From beyond the grave, From beyond the grave, Notice you get all the weather Notice you get all the weather Know you get Wish you survived I wish you survived I wish you survived I wish you survived You put up a fight for one more goodbye One more goodbye Just one more goodbye You put up a fight
4.
Getting better Know that those of us you left behind Struggled for a long time Doesn’t mean we lost our own lives In fact I think we’re gettin better now Filled the hole with somebody new To put my grief on standby Held my hand through the graveyard Then dried my tears before they could fall Know all these rules get away from you When your desire clouds your mind It’s up to you what you choose to do Reap what you’ve sown for all your life Getting Better
5.
Try It Out 04:00
I don’t think they like me much I’m just so far out of touch I don’t think I measure up Can’t tell if they give a fuck Look at all these clothes I wear Look at how I did my hair Watching how you curled your lips Watching how they move their hips back and forth I can’t be asked to change my mind I’ll never know if I don’t try Maybe if I make them dance Maybe if I make them smile If they gave me just one chance I could prove that I’m worth while I’m worth while, now I’m worth while I can’t be asked to change my mind I’ll never know if I don’t try
6.
Ludovico 01:31
Never able to forget Things that I’ve learned to regret Moving on I have my doubts That I could ever work this out Feel this way until I die Feel this way until I die Feel this way until I die Feel this way until I die
7.
I once felt so good around this place But now it’s changed for the worse Don’t you miss how things were? Could we not lift this curse? I can hear the sound Of the distant drums We once felt that we belonged here But the well ran dry, and we know why It’s not that we don’t care We just never bothered to try I can hear the Sounds of drums that Beat from Somewhere far away Find a place to call our own
8.
Do your own stunts and do your own drugs In your crystal cave inside your popcorn heart Reach down to the floor, wait for the knife Scared to care, but prone to love The million birds in the sky like a plague restlessly looming Fall for a pretty earring, stay for the drugs and diseases Acid phallus burns all your purest paints Railing your lines and drinking your drinks Salt shaker brain sprinkles out bits of your mind To lace life with flavor as it empties you Chase the butterfly and live your art You bleeding cactus in a shopping cart Weeping willows are all around And gravestone pillows carve the ground

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This concept album is dedicated to my deceased mother. Released on her birthday. This is a project that explores grief and trauma, pain and loss. I hope you find it beautiful and maybe it can help you with some of those emotions!

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released October 18, 2019

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